Monday, May 20, 2013

the last few weeks

this post has been scheduled for this morning... which means if you are reading this i am about two hours from landing in my new home for the summer-london! 

before i share all about my new city, i figured i'd share some pictures from my last few weeks of my sophomore year in college!

these past few weeks were filled with some not so fun stuff- papers, final exams, group projects, and oral presentations.  not to mention applications, orders for london, and packing.  these things were time consuming and insanely stressful.  BUT in the midst of all of that were some of the best memories of my sophomore year.

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^^ formal! two weeks ago we had formal at this gorgeous country club.  i borrowed this dress from my big (top picture) and had so much fun with everyone.
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^^ i planned an event for my sorority's philanthropy, a soccer tournament called alpha phifa!  the day was gorgeous and we raised $2,000.
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^^ macklemore and time flies tuesday came to my school for our spring concert.  it was such a fun day!
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^^my baby sister had her prom!  isn't she gorgeous?


Sunday, May 19, 2013

LONDON CALLING



i honestly did not mean to take such a long break from blogging.  but sometimes massive end of the year finals and papers take up a majority of your time and you have no time to go to the gym, sleep, or blog.

i'm officially done with my sophomore year of college, which is insane because i remember walking on campus as a new freshman like it was yesterday.  the fact that i am half way done with school is beyond scary.

but now it's summer and time for a new adventure because tonight i am leaving for london!!!

for those of you new readers {do I even have readers left???} i am spending the next two months studying abroad in london!  

i have such a mix of emotions {nerves, excitement, worry} but i honestly know that i am going to have the time of my life.  it's my biggest adventure EVER and i'm so excited to blog here about it this summer.

do you have any big plans for this summer?  i have a few random posts scheduled for this week while i settle in but don't you worry.... as soon as i get moved in i will be blogging all about this!! xo 

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

jane goodall and the fear of the unknown.

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two weeks ago i had a panic attack.  it was a full on, tear streaming down my face, couldn't breathe, panic attack.  

and it wasn't the first one this year.  in fact, it wasn't the first one this month.

i am currently in the four week countdown to the day i leave for london.  less then four weeks, in fact.  for those of you who don't know, i'll be living in london for two months this summer.

and i'm terrified.  i'm terrified that i won't like it.  i'm terrified i'll get homesick or be lonely.  
don't get me wrong.  i am excited.  i'm so grateful for this opportunity and i know if i backed out of it i would regret it.

but there's still that part of me that is so beyond nervous it makes me nauseous.

last week, jane goodall came to my school to speak.  i kind of was hoping she'd bring a monkey or gorilla {she didn't}, so that was kind of a let down, but otherwise i thought she was great.

one of the things she spoke about was how when she was still a teenager she moved to africa to work and live with the gorillas.  she said she was so incredibly nervous, but that this was a huge thing for her and looking back, it was the best decision she made.

and i feel like, in the midst of my panic attacks, she said this for me.  i know moving to london for the summer is the best thing i can do right now.  i know deep down i am about to have a life changing summer.

so thanks ms. goodall.  for making me a little more excited and a little less nervous.

besides, it's too late to back out now.  my visa was officially approved on friday!  

have you ever done something that absolutely terrified you?  xo

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

boston.

i had just gotten out of my 2:45 PM American politics class yesterday when i went on Facebook and saw the status.

say strong boston.

i had no idea what happened, and quickly turned on the news.  
i was shocked.

horrified, i guess, would be the word.
my best friend goes to boston college.  
on sunday she told me she couldn't wait to watch the marathon.  they had off from school and she was planning on watching her friend run the marathon.

i panicked.  i couldn't get a hold of her.

my friend is fine.  she called me an hour later when she could get service.  she was 2 miles from the site of the bomb when it went off.  thank god. 

every time something like this happens- aurora, sandy hook, now this- i get nauseous.  maybe it's because i can never fathom the idea of hurting someone else.  i just don't understand how evil some people can be.

but i have to remember, that these evil people make up just a small portion of our population.  while watching the news, i saw people running towards the blast to help victims.  i am hearing stories of people running through the finish line and straight to the hospital to give blood.  of doctors who ran straight to the medical tents.  of homeowners who brought food and water to the runners.

today i pray for the three innocent people that were killed,  for the 100+ people that were injured.  for the runners whose dreams of finishing the race didn't come true.  for the kids who were there and whose innocence was taken away.

but i also thank god for the kind people.  the people who risked there lives.  who had no idea if another bomb was going to go off, but stayed to help anyway.  

between the gunman in schools and movie theaters and now bombs at marathons, it's hard to feel safe.  xo



Monday, April 15, 2013

that time i was a model

my friend gina needed some models for one of her photo projects recently, and since I'm currently living up to me new years resolution to not say "no" as much, i agreed.

i've never modeled anything before, and it definitely showed in the first few photographs.  but once i warmed up to the camera, it wasn't so bad.  i'm not saying i'm dropping out of school to model anytime soon.... but these i kind of enjoy.

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Friday, April 12, 2013

what i would wear to... Coachella

i've always dreamed of going to Coachella.  Unfortunately, it's currently not feasible right now thanks to a little thing called school {and the fact that I'm planning my big adventure for this summer}.  However, if I was going, I'd be decked out in the cutest bohemian clothes I could find.  I'm currently loving these gorgeous pieces...

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the perfect cross-body bag for carrying all the essentials.... cleobella 
printed shorts to spice up a simple tee..... free people
a colorful kimono for a cool evening... planet blue
easy sandals perfect for walking... shopbop
a stack of bracelets for some arm candy.... spell and the gypsy collective
a bright romper to stand out.... shopbop
a flowy dress for a hot day... free people 

while all the cool kids are playing at Coachella, i'll be here in Pennsylvania this weekend.  One day though, I'll be the cool kid!

Is anyone going to Coachella?  xo

Thursday, April 11, 2013

bits of the past week

the past week has been great.  just great.  i got to go home this past weekend for my sister's birthday.  i spent time with my friends this week.  i haven't had much work, which has allowed me a ton of time to enjoy the little things! 

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^^ a lazy bath before I went back to school
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^^ some of my best friends // a mango and vanilla treat // hanging out on a monday night 

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^^ rainbow pancakes! 

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^^ the little one
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^^ themed parties where i get to wear a tutu are my favorite

how has your week been?  xo 

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

things i'm loving {tuesday}

today i woke up thinking "it will be a great day.  not even just a great day, but a great week."
it could have something to do with the things i am absolutely loving about this week:

*the fact that it's 80 degrees out today and only supposed to get warmer.  something about warm weather makes me so happy.

*the fact that since i dropped my psychology major (more on that), i get to drop my psychology lab for the semester and therefore have tuesday, thursdays, and fridays after 11 AM completely free.

*the fact that Jane Goodall is coming to speak to my school on thursday.  Monkeys and Gorillas make me happy.  is it bad i'm sort of hoping that she brings one?

*the fact that my baby sister is now seventeen.  actually it makes me sad, but i'm happy for her that she got her license.

*the fact that in six weeks i will be moving to london for the summer.  the fact that this is happening is incredible.

*the fact that i have my car back on campus.  having the freedom to drive myself when i need to pick something up is a great thing.

*the fact that i have incredible friends and family that love me for who i am.  now, that makes me really happy.

what is making you happy today? 

Monday, April 8, 2013

happy {belated} birthday caroline!


Photo: HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY to my baby sister.  Love you to the moon and back

on saturday my little sister turned 17!  i can't believe my baby sister is that old!  this morning she passed her driving test and got her license.  crazy stuff, i tell you.

luckily, i was able to go home friday night so I could go out to dinner with her and celebrate her birthday on saturday morning.  i think she was nice and surprised that i was able to come home.

my sister is seriously the bees knees.  she's kind and selfless.  she's the smartest cookie i know.  in fact, she just got in to this highly selective engineering summer program.  engineering!  i had no clue what engineering even was until i got to college.  not just engineering, biomedical engineering.  i know she's going to do amazing things one day.

obviously i'm super proud of my little sis.  
happy birthday caroline!  i love you to the moon and back. 


Wednesday, April 3, 2013

personalities of the ocean.




sometimes the sheer force of this world brings out some of the best and worst emotions in me.  it happened a few nights ago.  i was going out to dinner with my family for an early birthday dinner for my sister.  she's turning 17 on the 6th, but i'll be back at school and most likely unable to go back home to visit.  so we celebrated early.

she decided she wanted to try this little italian place not too far from our house.  i, of course, was thrilled, italian being my favorite food an all.

what was different, special even, about this place, however, wasn't it's reputation for amazing food, exceptional service, or charming atmosphere.  it was it's location.

let me try to paint you all a picture of the town next to mine.  i'm from the jersey shore, so right next to my hometown is one amazing beach town.  it's a town that i have grown up in.  it's lined with little beachside cafes, bars, and beach clubs.  one of which my family belonged to since i was born.  (thats 19 years).  that particular beach club is where i learned how to swim and had my 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th, 9th, and 10th birthday parties (until i wanted to have a party like the cool kids have at a bowling league or pottery place... if only i could go back and change that).  it's where i spent the fourth of july every year, where i learned how to surf, and where i ate ice cream every afternoon at exactly 3 pm.  it's even the place where i had my first kiss.  sprinkled in between the clubs are a few public beaches.  one of which i worked at for the past three summers.  the place where i learned how to stand up for myself and where i met people who changed my life (more on that another day..).  needless to say, this town isn't just any town.  it was my entire childhood and young adult life.

this little italian place, where we celebrated my sisters birthday a few nights ago, is on the top floor of one of these beach clubs.  this particular beach club is one of the last ones in a long row.  to get there, we had to drive through the entire town.

for new readers, and some old ones, you may or may not know that this particular town, the town that holds some of my favorite memories and stories from my childhood, was almost completely destroyed when hurricane sandy hit in october.  that beach club that i spent ever summer?  gone.  the little cafes i walked to on my lunch break at work?  washed out.  the little hut us guards had that housed an old couch and tv, that was so ancient we used to joke that we would have a hurricane and it would still be standing for us each summer?  it was like it never existed.

so on our drive through this town a few nights ago, i wasn't surprised at the damage.  i had seen it already.  in pictures and in person.  i was used to the boarded up windows, mounds of rotten wood, and construction trucks that lined the street.

but when i walked up the two stories to where we would have dinner, i was simply in awe.  not only because this place, on the second floor of the beach club, looked as if it had been untouched by sandy.  but because, when i looked out onto the ocean which was our view for the evening, it was flat and calm.  the moon glistened in it and the gentle crashing of the waves filled the dining room.  it was like it was a completely different ocean then the one that destroyed homes and lives and towns.

and, to be honest, it kind of took my breathe away.  that this body of water had so many different personalities to it.

 i also kind of find it fascinating that something so incredibly terrorizing could be so calming at the same time.  mother nature truly is like a person, with different facets and personalities that will constantly surprise you.
picture of one of the local bars in the beachside town.